My Very First Sem Break

Today is my first day of semester break.

Initially, we, our class (at least 6 persons) have planned to have a great time at Times Square. Unfortunately, three of them didn't showed up, such a dissapointment. Nevertheless, Miki, Qian Fei and I enjoyed our time at Neway Karaoke Box.

After three hours of "K-box performance", we went to Starbucks. Twenty years of being a mankind, this was my very first experience at Starbucks. Ladies and gentlemen, "Caffe Latte". 

Frankly, I can't distinguish the difference between this 'noble coffee' and 'mamak ice coffee'. We had a pleasant chatting moment about 'why Taylor, Sunway, UCSI university colleges fee are so expensive' and what's the biggest difference between the graduation at there and TARC. Conclusion: it's the person who are studying will make the difference.

Then, "Padini" and "Uniqlo" were the places where I spent my next hour (and money). Well, "Uniqlo" fashion is still my favorite currently. I've done the fitting of eight different colors for their latest long sleeve crew neck T-shirt collection. Wine and navy were the colors that I've chosen. What a bountiful day =)

I'm a TARCian now....

Once upon a time, the first word that appeared in my thought on TARC college's quality was 'awful', my chance of studying at there was 'impossible', 'no way'. Indeed, all of these words are deprived from society rumour or common perspective which I think is partially true now.

The sole moment that I found myself was enjoying in the orientation week was getting to know new friends. They are Teik Yong, Chee En, Chi Yang, Eng Soon and Ron. One thing that I like about them is no foul words from their mouth. Certainly, one of the biggest chanllenges for me is getting along with different personality of people. I'm trying to cope with my emotion and body language that indicate 'dislike you' now whenever I encounter people speak out some off-color jokes or intentionally act like a joker in front of others. I accept the fact that guys always try to obtain the girls' attention whenever the opportunity emerge is a natural act, but speak out some hilarious answers intentionally for that attention while answering academic questions is indicating strongly that how desperate you are on starting a relationship rather than concentrate on your study. And yes, I don't appreciate that.

Well, I'm depressed to say that psychology is not my favourite course currently due to the inflexible way of lecturing by the experienced lecturer. Firstly, her tone is flat. I can feel the tiredness and unwillingness to lecture through such voice. And for sure I won't allow myself to sound like that during eight o'clock in the morning. Secondly, she turned off the all the lights in the hall while lecturing. What I saw was a woman in black standing behind a projector and lecture in front of a group of fellow creatures. Thirdly, lack of interaction with students. Only two questions was asked and one of them was written in the slide show. Well, I will find myself silly if I decide to answer it.

However, I'm pleased that there is still one lecturer, the only one whom I love the way she lecture. I always thought that, a lecturer should always behave like a lecturer, a professional who possess real humor, charismatic, intelligence and eloquent speaking. She is the one. Thus, she makes me feel that two hours of lecturing is totally insufficient. As she said, somebody possess a gift from God where he/she can makes others to tell him/her the whole life story with just a few sentences. And I think she is one of those.

Disgrace Lier

I'm very down today... because a person who used to train me, love me very much removed me as a facebook friend. My tears just can't stop dropping after I discovered the status from '(tick) Friend' to 'Send Friend Request' when I'm reviewing his updates.

After a minute of tears, I'm pretty sure that he had the same feeling as me when I hurt him badly with all my lies in front of him last time. How he covered his face after discovered a 2 and a half years trained student was still lying to him and trying to defend himself with another lie. All the pictures, his anger, asking why, scold are flowing inside my head.

I questioned myself last time: He has no blood relationship with you , he is the one who loves you, cares about you the most besides your parents, how can you did such thing to him? Answer: Selfishness. I am such a coward, disgrace and asshole....yeah, a typical asshole..

After I leaved him and them, I'm very afraid to meet with them again. I'm shaking and feel like want to dig a deep hole to hide myself whenever I saw cars that are same brand and colour with them on the roads. Don't even mention how will I react if I meet face to face with them accidentally.

This will be the memory that couldn't be wipe off forever. All I can do now is to move on my life and said to myself: Don't ever lie any more, never, ever..